Lita, Goddess Of Growth (00:01)
Lita, goddess of growth here and this is me showing up. It’s been a month I think since my last podcast and there’s so much I need to, love to catch you up on. I hope I’m having some people come forward and listen to the podcast and I would so love to have
you if you are listening to just interact with the podcast leave me a message I upload on Buzzsprout around once a month and I will be increasing the podcasts so where am I today today September
2025 leaving my Pluto square Pluto the midlife crisis apparently it could affect you age 30 to 60 so this is mine which should have ended end of July did I feel a shift yes has it resolved everything no
The energies have shifted and I seem to be doing a lot of clean up. I’ve gone from a season of drought, working very hard to get things moving and not getting the visibility I needed to progress to succeed. By the end of July I could see a glimmer of hope.
some movement finances changed a little I had to take a role to stable my income bring in some much needed cash to make sure that I was in a position to pay the bills pay my mortgage
I reported the last time I was here that I became a creator network manager via TikTok. The invitation came via my For You page. I applied. It was about April time. I was accepted in April and I had so much hope. The opportunity held. I thought so much promise. Well,
It wasn’t too long ago that I managed to give my notice into the platform. I continue to build my business now called Sovereign. The vision is still the same to coach creators, people running their small business.
and providing a space where community can be built, where I am in a position to spotlight others, help them transform using their stories as a start, and also building community. Often we forget why we start things.
I joined social media so that I could improve my visibility, increase my network, so that whilst I was working and building my coaching practice, things would be easier. But somehow along the line, I ended up on social media and very concerned about algorithms, following prompts on how many times to go online and so on and so
Meanwhile, real life has been happening and the two came together, they came to a head.
So my life at this time, 51 soon. My goodness, when I first started this podcast in February, I was almost just getting used to being 50. 50 was not an age that I dreaded at all. I thought my body would look much better than it does at this time, but evidently I didn’t put in the work or the effort to get it so. There’s been a bit of sadness.
I worked my life trying to get out of poverty so that I would be in a position to welcome, actually put myself in a position to try for a child and I’ve never had the opportunity to do so and it’s likely at this stage of life I will not have the opportunity to do so. I’ve not been able to grieve about it.
mainly because my focus has been on keeping my bills paid, keeping my mortgage paid, keeping a roof over my head.
I mentioned in my last podcast that I spent a lot of my 22, 2022 until even up until July this year 2025, hoping and praying that whatever happens, please do not let me lose my home. Stability being key for me. I had so many moves in my youth.
I only stabilised accommodation from the late 2000s when I purchased my first apartment. Well I’m in my little home in a little village in Somerset and I have been here. September so this will be my fifth anniversary in this property.
I must admit after the hard work that I have been going through, stress of having income one minute then drought and always catching up catching up myself, a few weeks ago I really questioned what it was I was fighting to save but I’m here. Having something is better than having nothing I suppose.
Today I was thinking a bit about this idea of borrowing from the future. And I must admit there’s many a thing that I delayed and put off hoping for a better tomorrow. You know, you listen to the stories, adults tell you, ⁓ it will get better.
And one day I actually realised, and this is only very recently, that it’s not necessarily the case that things get better. They may appear so on the surface, but more so is the case of how we view the scenarios that come our way, how we internalise them.
how we manage ourselves, our emotions and our thought process. I don’t necessarily believe things get better, but then I suppose it depends on what you mean by better.
even to the point of questioning prayer. Because it’s dawned on me if we are living in seasons, we’re all in this world but living in different worlds, no amount of prayer is going to change the season that we are in. Proactive steps like for example
making sure that you’re traveling to a different destination, that you’re in a different location, but the truth is the majority of us cannot outrun our season and there is something I suppose beautiful in going through the cycles of life so that we have those moments where things are fallow.
and we’re in that position later on where things start to sprout and we’re there later to enjoy and appreciate the harvest. Many don’t get to see the harvest, many don’t get to appreciate the harvest but we’d like to think that the whole process of going on that journey is what is keeping us contained.
helping our spirits to evolve.
and I will say that my life has often been almost as if I read a lot of books as a child so almost as if I not only delayed womanhood but delayed life to the point where I felt I needed to just keep working
keep focused and one day tomorrow things would look and be how I needed them to be. Well I am 51 not too long from now the year has gone really fast and I am seeing things quite a lot different so much differently to how I used to I’ve aged
when I say I’ve aged it’s a different kind of aging it’s almost as if these last two years this just came upon me I looked on my face one day and I could actually see the age on my face. I haven’t been on TikTok for a few weeks I actually closed my accounts down I thought actually I need to step away and give it a break.
And instead what I’ve been doing is building my business because what it showed me, the opportunity that was presented was that I really do enjoy coaching. I really do enjoy going through and working with someone on their business strategy, all of that.
I also really need to have freedom of expression. I need to be able to build connections and not have to worry about what I say and how I say things, which I think was becoming an issue on the platform in the strangest way.
I thank TikTok because it was due to TikTok that I decided to open this podcast. It was on my mind for a good couple of years, but then going on TikTok and…
attempting to do posts about how I felt and what I was going through. Initially I had a business account and often I would have my post deleted and be told that the posts themselves were not suitable for the platform. It’s life.
So actually, to be fair, even to accept the role of Creator Network Manager this year, I suppose I needed that kind of affirmation. And to be able to walk away with my head held high, that too was good.
I was able to look behind the scenes and realise that actually whatever we’re going to build, we do need to build on our own. No one’s actually going to help us on this process.
When we’re talking about visibility and improving ourselves, our business prospects, our brands, this is work that we do. There’s no platform that’s going to do it for us. Yes, platforms will present connections and opportunity, but it’s for us to use the space and create what it is that we’re there to create to make sure that we’re able to connect to the people that’s there.
to receive our message or to connect with our service, our product, our brand. So moving on from social media, I’ve come to realise these transits, yes they show you what’s happening in the core and they are influences but at the end of the transit life doesn’t just go back to normal, there isn’t an immediate light.
No, there is a clean up after. So as I was saying today, I was thinking about borrowing from the future this idea that tomorrow will be better. And in having that idea, I suppose in a way.
It’s what some religious people tell themselves on a daily basis, you know, if I’m good now, no matter what piety I’m going through, it will be okay because I’ll be going to heaven. It’s like that. So we live our lives postponing until tomorrow and beyond with this idea that somewhere later down the line, life is going to be better than today.
But how about using this time, even just small moments of the day, to just be in today. Be glad in today. Knowing this is all we have. This is all there is. Until the next time.
So again when I think about the season coming to the end, the transit ending, the shifts, I’m finding I’m doing a lot that I still don’t necessarily want to do. I am also in the background working on websites and next steps and I do question at what point will I
be in a position to fully commit to what I’d like to do and then I have to remind myself again, be in the moment, tomorrow is not promised. And then I continue to have these discussions with myself. It gets me thinking about debt, credit. You see as a child, raising a single parent home,
There wasn’t that value that one would have about budgeting and income. I was very privileged to have a mother that was quite good at the time showing these are the bills that need to be paid, etc, etc. So I did have that awareness and often I’d be sent to put down money on this bill and that bill. Remember when the LED, I think that’s what it used to call, LED.
office was open, you’d go and pay your electric and you’d wait until the red bill but not before something happened to make sure that you paid enough so all those kinds of things that don’t exist anymore. So yeah, had an awareness definitely before I left home at 17 and it was in my degree years that I was able to take on budgeting, strategy, I really enjoyed strategy. We used to have simulations and
I think I was quite good at that, deciding in the software what routes to take for more profitability and things like that, then the real world kicked in.
But thinking about debt, I understand that as a society, we often see people crash, not observing the season that they’re in. And maybe there’s a bit of light, maybe they’ve gone from unemployment to employment or had ⁓ someone join their life to increase their income, or however it’s done.
and immediately on the outside we presume okay life is better and then before you know it we start demanding attention, resources and so forth on the basis as to what the person has now. But do we give enough time to those that have been through the drought?
Do we give enough time to ourselves, to each other, to recover from the journey that that fellow period? Often the cycle of debt continues because we have a low point, then there’s this high point and there isn’t any time taken to consolidate.
So this is why I do believe you hear stories about people who they increase their income but they still never have any money because they don’t consolidate with the fact that actually in the past this is what I had and I couldn’t afford xyz so I couldn’t do this. Money has increased have you increased up the buffer so that no matter what happens you’ve got something set aside to to move
forward. It looks better on paper and it looks better on my mind but I hope you understand what I’m trying to convey. Consolidation and consolidation is not just about the finances, the material, we’re talking about the spiritual.
to come through a couple of years questioning is your mind right? Is this really happening? What does faith mean? What does friendship mean? What does partnership mean? Question upon question and each one revealing itself in its own way. We see light, we breathe differently and we can feel a change.
but there’s that consolidation, that moment for healing. Whether it’s going on a retreat, whether it’s setting a number of baths, lighting some candles and just being present, adding fragrance, getting a new robe. However it is that we
acknowledge what it is that we have been through in this season that we’ve left behind us, whether it be of drought, loss, ending, whatever it is.
Are we giving ourselves and each other the time needed to consolidate? Because as much as there may be a change now, that does not mean that the debts that were accumulated in the drought period have been paid. There needs to be some time to appreciate where we’ve come from, to appreciate where we are now.
so that we’re in a better place and space in whatever future is to come. And we support each other in doing so best when we allow that consolidation to happen. It’s something from childhood, I think, being of a poor background, whereby as soon as I had
was a case of let’s celebrate let’s do now because I was not able to do before.
but never really catching up, never really having enough, always on survival level.
Life has changed a lot. The things that were seen as valuable, the view of them has changed a lot. Relationships have changed. Each almost 51, more illnesses are around me.
People still questioning life, what is it all about? And it doesn’t really matter the age to be fair. We all question it on a level. And as much as many of us would say we have faith and whatever it is that we say about ourselves, there’s still that question, why?
unless we’re living our best life. I have a few plans of my own so that I can
enjoy the moment as best as possible. I’m still working very hard just to survive and when I say survive I mean I’m still at the stage it’s now September any small change could mean that I am not in a position to pay the bills I need to pay and it’s not the nicest position to be in it could be worse.
I spoke to my mortgage company only last week and I felt, you know, I felt to myself, you know, actually as much as I don’t like being in this position, I’m still in a very good position.
and it gives me hope, it gives me hope for a life that can be lived. I move forward. Transits, astrology is what I will be reading. I read it for my personal knowledge and awareness. It helps me have faith in the time and the season and honestly at this time of my life I really do not know how people
assess life without knowing the season that they’re in. I don’t believe that astrology can be used to predict our lives because we’re creating our lives all the time every single day, every moment, but I do believe there’s definitely influences guiding us along the way.
I do believe that these last two and a bit years for myself since 2022, I do believe I was destined to have the crash that I had so that I could take a step back and really focus on what this life is that I signed up to is about. It’s not been easy. There’s been losses.
not all of them feel like losses though and as I say to get to the end of it almost and to then be thinking my gosh actually I don’t even know if I want to stay in this house anymore definitely I know more change is to come I have no idea how the change will come about but
My aspiration is to leave this life of survival. I’ve had it my whole life. Survival, survival, survival.
I’ve done that. I understand that journey. Well, do tap into the empowerment diaries. There will be some more podcasts to follow. And at the end of the podcast, there’s a few companies that I list on the upload, which I would love you to tap into.
and if you have any suggestions of other companies that I could add to support the podcast as well do let me know. I noticed that I have listeners in different countries now I’d love you to drop a line to let me know exactly where you’re listening from. Thank you for listening this is Lita, Goddess of Growth, stay empowered. Thank you.
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